Day 4

I freaking miss you.

I miss the way you lean against the entry way in the kitchen to talk to me. I miss hearing you and Shelby having snoring duels at night. I miss holding your hand. I miss praying with you before dinner, and the way we make fun of stupid commercials on TV. I miss watching the Golden Girls with you before bed. I miss kissing you goodnight and Sadie trying to squirm in between us. I miss you wanting to go to bed at 8pm because you're an old man. ;)

I miss you.

Now that that's been said...
Not much has happened today... Besides my hysterical screaming at the phone fit. I was really mad at myself that I missed your call, and I was convinced that it was my phone, not my finger, that hit the ignore button. I was super ticked and sobbing. The dogs must think I'm insane.... They burrowed under the covers like "oh crap...here it comes." I'd given up and just let the tears go when you called back. It's amazing how just hearing your voice can change my entire mood. I understand, now, when people say that deployments will bring you closer together. I'd love nothing more right now than to be able to kiss your face.

I completely understand why Jo used to freak out every time her phone wasn't right beside her... She and Keith have had to call mine prolly 5 times in the past 4 days. I'm thinking of attaching a strobe light to the case after they leave.

I'm still waiting to hear your voice tonight. Each hour that passes makes me more anxious. I know you'll call when you can, but I still worry.

You're my hero. I'll see you when you've finished your mission. Be safe and smart. Keep your gun clean. I love you so much.