Day 59

So, give or take a couple weeks, we are almost halfway through this deployment. While I realize that this means that you will be home relatively soon, when I think of it being only halfway over, it feels like an eternity. Let me try to explain what I mean....

I can think of you being gone another 8 or 9 weeks, and for me, that's manageable. Two months, although its around the same time frame, feels longer than that to me. But halfway? That just makes me feel awful. Halfway feels like I have to relive everyday that you've been gone...and that feels like forever. 'Halfway' means I'm looking back instead of moving forward, it means I'm repeating what we've been through instead of looking ahead to what is coming.... And what the future holds for us. I'm so excited for you to come home, and 'halfway' doesn't do that justice.

I miss you so much and I love you with every bit of my soul. You are the reason that I want to get out of bed in the mornings, and the last thing I think of before I fall asleep. Be safe. Be smart. Come home soon. I need you.

Goodnight, soldier.