Day 36/week 6

5 weeks down!
We're through the first month, my love!! I know it's been rough, but we are getting there. We have so many plans and fun times to look forward to when you get home, that these next months will fly.

I left the tv on in the bedroom last night, and forgot to turn it off this morning. It was on NatGeo as I was getting ready for bed. Noticing that made me smile because I know how much you love that channel... And then I noticed what was on NatGeo... A documentary on Bin Ladin's death. It was so intriguing that I stopped and watched. I just sat down on the foot of the bed and stared at the tv.

It was showing IR footage of the raid that night, and footage the next day of the compound on small cameras like the one you have with you. Crazy.

It took me back to the night in May when we watched the President report Bin Laden's death on tv. I cried as you stood with your arm around me. This deployment had just begun... I was so relieved that the horrid man was dead, but frozen in worry for all of our friends. I knew you wished you were over there that night, but I said a prayer of thanks that you weren't.

That was much more of an emotional night for me than I would have ever imagined. I was terrified. I could almost hear the sighs of relief from around the country.... But it almost felt like the nightmare was just beginning for us. I guess that with my life rotating within and around the military, I just look at and feel things differently now.

Taliban is a household word now, but for most people it's not used much anymore. For me, I hear that word in my mind multiple times a day. While they may be an organization that hit us on our home turf 10 years ago, and we killed their leader, they are not to be pushed to the back of our minds.

I wish I had the luxury of forgetting about them. I wish you did, too, but I guess it is you that provide that luxury of forgetting for so many others. I'm thankful that what you do over there allows others to sleep easy, and I know that you never do. Sleep easy, that is.

I love you so very much. I live each day looking forward to the day I will see your face again, and throw my arms around you. I catch myself daydreaming about your homecoming.

We miss you. Be safe, soldier. All my love, Goodnight.