Day 37

Is it sad that I get excited over every FRG email that mentions reintegration? My heart actually skips a beat at the thought of you coming home. I feel sorry for those couples who will never know that feeling...the feeling of a deployment homecoming. I'm excited, nervous, scared and overjoyed.... And it's still months away! :)

I miss you so much, babe. Sometimes it feels like years since you left... And other times, minutes. The worst is when I wake up dreaming you are here... I can taste the disappointment when the reality sets in. It scares the puppies, I think, when I sit up in bed looking for you like that. They get confused, then they start looking for you, too. Breaks my heart.

I woke up to Kahne licking my face at 4am a few days ago. I'm not sure if I was talking in my sleep or crying, but he was taking care of me in the only way he knew how. We have such good babies.

The Bachelor is getting super dramatic already this season.... You're going to crack up watching it. The Walking Dead should be starting again soon, but I'll save those to watch with you. I don't think you will miss many other shows... Maybe SYTYCD, but if you do, I'll save those, too.

I already feel better on our little health kick. Glad we finally got to where we needed to be with that. We will get there. I can feel it.

Ok baby, I'm going to bed. I love you to the moon and back. Sleep safe, be careful, and keep your weapon clean. Love you, goodnight, soldier.